This Battle Can Never Be Won

I did everything, of which I was against of

But that’s ok, as I was in love

Even the small nitty gritty things

Is causing us pain now.

Which earlier we used to adore, so much.

My mind is in one place but my heart longs for another

How can I let you go when I still wonder

About you, about us, and where it all went wrong.

Can we be fixed?

Or am I imaging things, things which never could be

Loving you and hating you at the same time,

I can’t construe these emotions anymore.

I feel like I’m constantly losing the battle inside me

I keep thinking that you will change

That we will start afresh

But you never will, will you?

© Pia Majumdar